The Result

Well, long time no post. Because I'm in the throes of morning sickness.

That's right, my fiance and I conceived within four cycles! Faster than I'd expected. It was draining and depressing each time my period would come. R actually thought I'd never get pregnant, because of my age (how naive). I'm currently 11 weeks. I'm not showing, but I've definitely gained weight. I had to buy bigger pants to feel comfortable sitting down at my job. Friends are definitely thinking something is up, because I haven't had a drink since December, and I laugh it away, saying that we're trying to start a family so I musn't drink, or that I have to drive home after an event. I feel terrible lying but it's too early to say something. I haven't finished all of the tests, nor have I even seen my obstetrician yet! It's frustrating how many appointments there are, and I'm the one having to book most of them. It's a lot of running around while still having to go to work.

My cat is absolutely fascinated by a video about pregnancy.

And the morning sickness. Oh god. My mom had it for four months while she was pregnant. It's unbelievable to me that she had more than one child. I only want to go through this one time, and never again. I normally love food, spices, and exotic flavors, but I can't handle anything more than salt and a little bit of pepper right now. My jam is Italian pasta: cacio e pepe, carbonara. I'm eating too much white flour, but whole wheat, raw veggies, raw fruits - anything healthy, really - wreaks havoc on my stomach. I feel miserable 90% of the time. There was one week where the morning sickness disappeared, and I thought it was over. After a few days of this gloriousness, I bought salad, wheat pasta, fruits...then promptly threw it all up as my morning sickness came back with a vengeance. The lettuce is slowly wilting in the back of my fridge as I type this.

My attempt to kick my coffee habit didn't last. I went back to my one cup in the morning, and I wasn't worried because after extensive reading, I determined that actually, one small cup won't hurt the baby. But, because I feel sick, as of now I haven't had coffee for over a week.

They say bad morning sickness means a girl. A friend of mine who believes in numerology also predicts a girl. We shall see.